Who am I?

Who am I is a question I have asked myself a lot recently. I know who I was in the past but who am I now? I know that I want to be the best mother and wife that I can be, and I know now that my best isn't everyone else's best.I know I'm tired of taking everyone else's BS at the cost of what I want. I know that I can't continue holing myself to impossible standard in some aspects of my life, not caring about other aspects of my life, and feeling inadequate when things go wrong. I know that despite what has been said in the past I am responsible and mature, and the people who said those things never truly saw me. I know that many of my family members have assessed and judged the child I was and haven't seen the woman I am now. I know that I can't define myself by other's view of me, I need to define myself. Now I plan on not compromising myself so much for what I want out of life. I have lived so long worrying about what is thought of me that I have trouble knowing what I think of me. I am no proud of being a pushover for so long. I am tired of doing things for people who wouldn't do the same for me. I don't care if you don;t like that my view are different than many of my family's. Most of those things never felt right to me.
I want to have no more regrets.
I want to be more blunt and say what I really think.
I have a strong belief in God, but I feel organized religion has corrupted everything.
I believe in the military.
I believe in our country and I feel we need to take care of home more than running around trying to fix the world.
I want my son to live a happy and uncomplicated life without being looked on as just having Down syndrome, or just different.
I want to help other parents of loss and disability. They have been shoved under the rug too long.
I want to own a home.
I need to be free of pushy people who think they can control me. I am not a child.
I have accepted that you never stop grieving those you have lost, it gets easier with time but never goes away, and that is OK.
I will not apologize if my grief makes people unconformable.
I believe being gay is not a choice, and I have a soft spot in my heart for homosexuals. They are targets of hate crimes and can't even get married. While it may seem it is trendy to be gay, these people go through major emotional issues,and I think that is widely forgotten.
I believe the government is too powerful, and too in everyone's business.
I believe the vast majority of Americans know nothing of politics, and just follow celebrities.
I believe that abortion is not a religious issue, but a moral one. When science continues to prove how much babies in the womb are capable of, even at a few weeks gestation, how can you tell me it is acceptable to kill your own child? Every human being was a tiny cluster of sell in their mother's womb, and I don't think it's anyone's right to kill it.